Saturday, April 17, 2010

Had a bad day

Today is one of the worst days I have had in about 3 years. Our stress level is so high around here. Please pray for our family and please pray that I can hang in "here" for 3 1/2 more months. I'm sure you can tell from my recent posts that culturally I am not in a very good place. The outside stress of living here is causing inside stress as well. My missionary friend who has lived here for over 10 years says that it is VERY hard the last few months before stateside assignment. This is almost as hard as when we first got on the field. I am feeling that "kind" of stress inside and I also feel like my first term has been a failure on almost all levels. John disagrees with me, but inside I feel that I have been very useless and have failed in so many areas.

In happier news, Jaxson got glasses today. I did it ALL by myself. I took him downtown and back (John says this should be considered as one of my successes). We went downtown because there are 3 blocks FULL of optical stores and the selection is so big). Anyway, We picked the glasses and had them made, ate lunch (for 1.75 a plate, apetizer, drink and desert) and were home in a record time of 3.5 hours. :) Once the kids go to sleep I will post a picture of Jaxson with his new lenses. He was like a girl picking them out. I let him pick the ones "he" wanted. This was so hard for me, but I'm not the one who has to wear them and I truly wanted them to express his personality and not mine.

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Jonatha said...

You have plenty of successes, just off the top of my head; showing your husband love and support, keeping your kids loved, fed, and clean, being pregnant during all this and giving birth to a little arrow for Christ, making new friends, and hardest for me - still speaking spanish! You have done amazing things in the lives of others during your time there - don't look down, look up!

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