Tuesday, September 9, 2008

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I humbly ask you to pray for me. I am very UP and down. One minute I am happy and smiling and loving life here and the next I just want to go home to my comfy life in America. But then I realize I don't have a life there anymore. The reality of the situation has hit me and I am just plain sad. Please don't interpret this as unthankfulness, because I am soooooooooo, beyond words thankful for all the Lord has given us. But my heart just aches at the same time because as much as this might be as close as I can get to my life in America, well....it's just a carbon copy of the original. And my soul aches for the original. Gotta go before I cry a river. Please pray.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh, so sorry! Praying that you will be comforted by God's loving arms! I know this is a difficult time. God has a plan... He will carry you through these times of mountain top highs and valley lows. Keep looking up!

Kim said...

I will pray. I'm sorry.

"I would but cannot rest,
In God's most Holy Will.
I know what He appoints is best,
and murmur at it still.
I murmur at it still.

Help my Unbelief"

From the song, "Help my Unbelief" by Red Mountain Music (google it). It's awesome.

Jessica said...

Hey so, I don't know you but, I found your blog on the IMB website somewhere (Sorry this is so random). I am currently applying for jman so, I have a huge heart for missions. I am so sorry that your heart is aching so bad. I am praying for you! Acts 20:24

Shawna said...

Jessica, Before you read this know it is written in love and after a few weeks prayer for you. I've been expecting the blog you just wrote and I'm going to keep praying for you. I'm sorry it is so hard write now. The theme of the rest of this can be summed up in five words.

RELAX

SLOW DOWN

LOOK AROUND

I've been worried about you for a week or two. It sounds like you are jumping into home education way fast when you aren't even settled. Take time to get out and explore your area with the kids. You are all in "getting to know each other again" mode after a year of being separate frequently. That is a big transition by itself, add moving to two new countries in a short time and you guys have enough stress on you to put a person in the hospital. Add John's dad's health, etc., two new "languages", the pressure you were under during language school. I YI YI!

Relax and rest and let God love on you for a bit!

Getting to know a new country is such an amazing home education opportunity!

You could even work at getting to know folks at the park while you are there with the kids so ALL of you can have friends in Lima....

I know about missing your home and familiarity first hand - it is harder when you aren't putting down roots in the new place. Florida will always be special to you but you are right, it changes drastically in short amounts of time here, and it will always feel like a new place or a place to visit. God will take you through this time of mourning for the Florida you remember and you will come out of it seeing the good and bad of both Lima and Florida. Lima will feel more comfortable than Florida in a short time and soon it will be your new "HOME" really. In the mean time slow down and be good to yourself, your hubby and your kiddos.

Shawna

Anonymous said...

I'm praying for you sister.

Amy said...

Praying. Praying. Praying, my friend.

The Byrd's Nest said...

Oh Jessica, I pray for you and your family! I can't even imagine the culture shock and the pain of being somewhere where no one understands you and there is not alot of Christian fellowship.

Seems that Shawna has said all the right things to you. Read her words slowly and drink them in.

Praying for our new friend.

Texas Aggie in Florida said...

I know the feeling! Oh do I!!! You can call me any time!

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